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Character Game Mental Health Transfem

Madeline

Madeline is a trans girl with anxiety, who the game centers around as she attempts to climb Celeste Mountain. Her journey has story beats that can be very relatable to trans players, such as the main villain being an evil version of Madeline, who literally comes out of a mirror for the sole purpose of ruining Madeline’s life. Her journey up the mountain represents her struggle with mental health, and her reflection literally throwing her back to the bottom at one point in the story very bluntly represents her dysphoria damaging her mental health. Madeline was confirmed to be trans by the games creator, an enbie named Maddy Thorson, after the release of the games “Farewell” expansion pack, which showed Madeline in her room with a little trans flag a rainbow flag on her wall, right behind her computer. Maddy also stated that some of her experiences with her identity and mental health are reflected in the game and it’s central character.

More Info:

  • Pronouns/Gender: she/her, transfem
  • Main/Playable Character in videogame “Celeste”, playable character in the Nintendo Switch version of “TowerFall”

Story (SPOILERS!!)

We meet our hero at the base of Celeste Mountain, where her journey begins. Madeline, plagued with self-doubt, has spontaneously decided to make the difficult climb up the mountain in an attempt to recover her self-esteem. At the base of the mountain, she meets an old lady named Granny, who mockingly discourages Madeline and warns her of the supernatural nature of the mountain. Madeline ignores her taunting, and immediately has to cross a bridge that collapses as she dashes across, eliminating her way back. Madeline is now set on her journey up Celeste Mountain.

In the ruins of an abandoned city, Madeline meets a social media guru named Theo, who is mostly just trekking up the mountain for online fame. Shortly after meeting Theo, Madeline meets the antagonist of Celeste in a nightmare, who she names “Badeline”. A personification of Madeline’s darkest thoughts, Badeline tells her that she’s simply too weak to climb the mountain, describing herself as Madeline’s more “pragmatic” half.

Madeline next reaches the Celestial Resort, a rundown resort run by the ghost of a man named Oshiro, who is in a state of denial about the state of his resort. After Madeline ignores his offers to let her stay and instead just helps him clean the place up, Badeline persuades Oshiro that she only did it to fuel her own ego, and he chases her out of the resort in a fit of rage.

After pushing through a windy area, Madeline meets Theo at a gondola lift. Despite the anxiety of being so high up, Madeline enjoys the calm ride, until Badeline comes and stops the lift mid-ride. Madeline begins to have an extreme panic attack that leaves her gasping for air on the floor of the lift. While she breaks down, Theo teaches her a grounding technique that his grandmother taught him. Breathing in and out, visualizing that her breath is keeping a feather floating in the air, Madeline gets back on her feet.

Once the gondola continues moving, it takes the two to an ancient temple, where Theo gets sealed in a magic crystal. After carrying her crystal-encrusted friend through the temple, Madeline was once again runs into Badeline. Now with the confidence to confront her, Madeline lashes out and tells her that she wishes Badeline would just leave her alone, permanently. Hurt, Badeline throws her all the way back down the mountain.

Once again, Madeline finds herself at Granny’s hut. After talking to Granny, Madeline realizes that she should seek resolution with Badeline rather than abandoning her entirely, and sets off to find her counterpart. With Madeline finally understanding Badeline, the two share a hug and fuse together, using their combined power to reach the peak of Mount Celeste.

As the sun sets, Madeline and Badeline watch the sun set from the stunning view at the peak of the mountain. Though Badeline won’t have a physical form when they leave the magical mountain, Badeline will still be a part of her, and now they’ll live life working together, as one.

About a year later, Madeline returns to Celeste Mountain to explore the core of the mountain with Granny. Over time, the two grow close.

When Granny died shortly after, Madeline refused to go to her funeral. She shut down, and stopped communicating with her friends, including Theo. Wracked with guilt, she then travels to Granny’s grave. There, she sees a bluebird, which she recognizes as the bird that watched over her during her original journey up the mountain, and gives chase, believing that it’s a Part of Granny, just like Badeline is a Part of her. When Madeline chases the bird all the way up into space, Badeline abandons her, telling her that she’s in denial.

Badeline later returns to tell Madeline that she’s actually in a dream. Faced with the chance to see Granny one last time, Madeline forges on anyways, and Badeline eventually helps her. She catches the bird, and though she at first refuses to let this little part of Granny go, she decides to set it free as a tribute to her friend. After continuing to follow the bird higher and higher up, Madeline reaches a vast, cloudy expanse, where she finally meets with Granny once again. After getting some closure and a last goodbye with Granny, Madeline wakes up in her bedroom. Upon waking up, Madeline decides to finally let Theo back into her life, by starting a video call with him on her computer. They catch up, and Madeline finally talks about her grief over Granny’s death. Theo also tells Madeline that, as he learned from a picture he found laying around, his grandfather and Granny were actually friends who climbed Celeste Mountain together way back in the day.

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Character Game Mental Health Transfem

Samus Aran

In earlier depictions, Samus Aran from “Metroid” was represented as a trans woman! She was described as a “newhalf”, an old Japanese slang term for trans women, by her designer, Hirofumi Matsuoka in 1994. She was also said around that time to be 6’3 and 198 pounds, more typical AMAB dimensions. Though she’s since been made smaller and more conventionally feminine in more recent games, there’s been nothing to suggest that she’s strictly cisgender, and the creator’s intent still stands!

Samus is the Nintendo universe’s most powerful bounty hunter! Using her high-tech Power Suit, which is integrated into her DNA, given to her by an alien race called the Chozo, she fights Space Pirates, robots, and monsters alike in pursuit of galactic peace. She finds upgrades to her armor like missiles, stronger laser beams, and a grappling hook to help her fight those who get in her way and navigate the vast and beautiful environments she explores throughout the Metroid franchise. In almost every grand story she stars in, she comes face-to-face with Ridley, a giant space dragon that, according to a manga that’s only available on a few scattered websites now, actually killed her parents. Samus is quiet and introverted, as suits the isolating environments she’s usually sent to, with a composure and level of combat prowess that makes her perfect at her job.  Despite her lonely nature, Samus will defend those few close to her with everything she has.

More Info:

  • Pronouns & Gender: She/Her, transfem
  • Type of Media: Main Character/Player Character in Nintendo’s “Metroid” videogame franchise (“Metroid”, “Metroid II: Return of Samus”, “Super Metroid”, “Metroid Fusion”, “Metroid Prime”, “Metroid: Zero Mission”, “Metroid Prime 2: Echoes”, “Metroid Prime Hunters”, “Metroid Prime 3: Corruption”, “Metroid: Other M”, “Metroid: Samus Returns”, and “Metroid Dread”), Minor Character in multiple Nintendo titles (“Metroid Prime: Federation Force”, multiple “Kirby” games, multiple “Super Smash Brothers” games, others).

  • Fun Facts
    • The Metroid series was actually heavily inspired by the “Alien” movies! Both series have a badass female protagonist, and both center around a deadly alien race. The idea of the Queen Metroid was inspired by the Queen Xenomorph from “Aliens”, and both Samus and Ripley have their DNA modified with that of an alien species in “Metroid: Fusion” and “Alien: Resurrection”. 

Story (SPOILERS!!):

(This section is based on only the canon Metroid games, in their official chronological order, using any remakes as the canonical story)

Samus’s story begins with her first mission, in Metroid: Zero Mission. In the year 20X5, the Galactic Federation hires Samus to hunt down Mother Brain and her Space Pirates on Planet Zebes, who have stolen Metroids, immensely dangerous slimey organisms with the power to drain the life force of their prey. After defeating Mother Brain’s two generals, Ridley and Kraid, Samus destroys their leader and attempts flees the planet. However, Samus is shot down, forcing her to infiltrate and destroy the Space Pirate research vessel, leaving the ship just before it self-destructs.

From there, the timeline goes on with the Metroid Prime trilogy and it’s spinoffs. After another battle with Ridley, this time called Meta Ridley, Samus crash lands on Tallon IV. There she find more Chozo ruins, and another Space Pirate research center, this time studying a radioactive compoud called “Phazon”. After finding a suit that makes her immune to Phazon, Samus eventually finds the origin of Tallon IV’s Phazon problem, a heavily Phazon-mutated Metroid, which the game itself is named after: the Metroid Prime. Samus destroys it and escapes the planet. After this comes Metroid Prime Hunters, which is mostly unrelated to the rest of the Metroid Prime series. Samus fights some other bounty hunters, beat a big spooky ancient evil, and goes on her way. In Metroid Prime II: Echoes, she lands on the planet Aether, a planet who’s Phazon corruption has split the planet into two separate “light” and “dark” dimensions, which war against eachother. On Aether, Samus fights against an evil version of herself, Dark Samus, who formed from the remains of the Phazon Suit and the Metroid Prime. She mends the planet’s two halves back together, and then leaves for her next adventure. At the start of Metroid Prime 3: Corruption, Samus is infected with Phazon by Dark Samus while defending a Galactic Federation outpost. To save her life, her suit is outfitted with new ear that gives her rad new Phazon powers. Samus goes from planet to planet, eventually reaching and destroying Phaaze, the source of all Phazon, which causes the destruction of all Phazon in the galaxy as a result. Phazon has been destroyed, the galaxy is at peace.

After all this, the Galactic Federation decides to make their own knockoff Power Suits. A squad of Galactic Marines goes on missions in these new suits, with Samus appearing occassionally to help. Samus is later captured and mind controlled by the Space Pirates, but is freed by the Marines. In a post-credit scene, one of the bounty hunters from Hunters is shown stealing a Metroid, for unspecified reasons (this character seems to be being set up to be the villain of the upcoming Metroid Prime 4, as his ship is seen chasing after Samus’s in the post-credit scene of Metroid Prime 3).

By now, the Galactic Federation has decided that Metroids are too dangerous to exist. In Metroid: Samus Returns, Samus is sent to SR-388, the homeplanet of the Metroids, to exterminate every last on of them. After eliminating all 40 on the planet, including the Queen Metroid, Samus goes to leave the planet. On her way out, a Metroid egg hatches right in front of her. While she almost kills it on sight, she instead decides to have mercy on the little baby Metroid, and takes it with her. She runs into Ridley for like the 10th time, who she defeats with the baby Metroid’s help, and leaves the planet. 

The last Metroid is in captivity. The galaxy is at peace. In the classic banger, Super Metroid, Samus has put the baby Metroid into the care of Federation scientists. The baby is immediately stolen by Ridley, who flies off back to Planet Zebes, where it all began. After once again defeating Kraid and Ridley, along with some new foes, Samus is almost killed by a rebuilt, stronger Mother Brain. Just in time, the baby, now fully grown, swoops in and latches onto Mother Brain, draining her life force. As the baby heals Samus with the energy stolen from Mother Brain, the Brain gravely injures it. The baby dies saving Samus. Samus once again destroys Mother Brain, and escapes Planet Zebes. 

Metroid: Other M, the most controversial game in the franchise, gives Samus the most in-depth personality of any installment. The story of this one is complicated and actually sort of convoluted, so I won’t go into it too deeply. Essentially, Samus is scarred and heartbroken by the fate of the baby Metroid in Super Metroid. For her first mission after months of recovery, she goes to yet another research station that’s been abandoned for mysterious reasons. Here, she reunites with her old commanding officer and father figure, Adam Malkovich. When Samus meets Ridley again later on, she’s shown having a post-traumatic episode, a result of the events of Super Metroid. When they find out that this research station had been a cloning station for Metroids, using residue from the baby scraped off of Samus’s suit after her last mission. Adam sacrifices himself to destroy the station. Samus later returns to the remains of the station in a post-credit section to retrieve Adam’s helmet, a lone keepsake from her former commander. 

At the beginning of Metroid: Fusion, a deadly accident befalls Samus. While investigating the disappearance of multiple Federation soldiers on SR-388, she stumbles across a strange parasite, that absorbs itself into her body. Later, while piloting her ship, she blacks out nd crashes into an asteroid. When she is taken to a medical center, the strange parasite, which they named the X Parasite, had made it’s way into her nervous system, and fused her Power Suit to her body. She was only saved when a vaccine was made using more Metroid DNA (which they seem to just never run out of), which is now realized to have been the natural predator of the X Parasite. Samus is now a hybrid of human, Chozo, and Metroid DNA. Samus is given a sleek new purple ship, and is sent to ANOTHER compromised research station, this time one where the X Parasite was being held. With Samus is an AI assistant, which she named after her former commander, Adam. After going through the now X-infested station, Samus is shocked to discover that the Federation hasn’t given up on cloning Metroids, and that this is the true nature of the station. At the last second before the station self destructs, she accidentally calls the AI “Adam” out loud. After searching the Federation database for that name, the AI assimilates Adam’s personality, under the explanation that the Federation uploads it’s greatest military minds to the database. Samus escapes just as the station is eviscerated, destroying the X-Parasite for good.

……….except not really. At the start of the most recent game, Metroid Dread, Samus receives a message that X has been spotted on Planet ZDR. After defeating several X-corrupted robots sent there by the Federation, Samus, unlocking the full power of her Metroid DNA, destroys the planet, once again escaping just in time.

 

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Character Game Transfem

Beauty Nova

Beauty Nova is a minor Pokémon character that can be battled in Pokémon X & Y. Nova says that, just a half year ago, she was a Black Belt (or a Karate King in the Japanese version), a trainer type that’s exclusively male, in contrast to her “Beauty” trainer type, which is exclusively female. While her dialogue in the English version is somewhat censored, she says in the Japanese version “the power of medical science is amazing, wouldn’t you say?!”, alluding to her medical transition!! 😀

More Info: 

  • Prononuns & Gender: she/her, transfem
  • Type of Media: Fightable trainer (Pokemon X & Y) at the Kalos region’s Battle Maison in Kiloude City
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Song Transfem

Yoshi’s Island by Glass Beach

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Description:

Yoshi’s Island represents the transfem community by detailing a trans girl’s relationship with her mother and society. This is a transfem anthem with lyrics that can hit extremely hard, like “I won’t say she even though I know you want me to, I know that it’s hard but I swear I still love you”. It encapsulates how it feels to be trans in such an amazing and accurate way, while also having a bouncy, energetic theme that fits the vibe weirdly well.

Full song lyrics:

One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four

One, two, three, four
Five, six, seven, eight

I can’t take the pressure
Yeah, everybody thinks that you just need to grow up
I know it’s hard, it’s fucking impossible
tryna make sense of the things that you feel now

With spiro and estro from Vanuatu
What the hell do you think that’ll do to you?
I won’t say “she” even though I know you want me to
I know that it’s hard but I swear I still love you

I can’t take the pressure
Cry on the bathroom floor when you look in the mirror
Cover your neck or they’ll cut your head off
J, you’re only cute with your heart eyes and legs crossed

Write the things you think when you’re out of your body
Run yourself out of words to say you’re hopelessly lonely
And don’t leave the city and don’t leave the covers too
I know it’s hard but I swear I still love you

I am never gonna understand
I am never gonna understand
I am everything you think about her
Behind her back, the whole truth
Does it hurt to say you love her like a son?
The world could kill her just cause she can’t fit in right

Yeah, they’ll make it so dangerous
When they leave no room to breathe in the space they carved out for us
When the get inside your head, give you white lies and black eyes
When they try to change your shape until your sense of self dies

But you make me feel like I’m out of my body
We ran out of words to say we’re hopelessly lonely
So don’t leave the city, please don’t leave the covers too
Just stay right here babe, let’s live life like lovers do

I am never gonna understand
I am never gonna understand
I am everything you think about her
Behind her back, the whole truth
Does it hurt to say you care about your son?
The world could kill her just cause she can’t fit in right

You take spiro and estro from Vanuatu
You say you won’t think about nothing but loving you
We’re sleeping harbor seals on the seaside of Malibu
Okay, I won’t think about nothing but loving you

Spiro and estro from Vanuatu
You say you won’t think about nothing but loving you
We’re sleeping harbor seals on the seaside of Malibu
Okay, I won’t think about nothing but loving you


Notes:

This is my favorite song of all time!!!!!! It hits really hard for me and it’s relatable to me because of my relationships with my mom and grandparents, and WOAH yeah some of these lyrics rock me to my core, like “I won’t say she even though I know you want me to, I know that it’s hard but I swear I still love you”, WOAHHHHHHHH THATS ROUGH

-Sylvie <3

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Song Transfem

bedroom community by Glass Beach

Bedroom Community represents the transfem community in a similar way to Yoshi’s Island. The name of this song, Bedroom Community, could refer to an online community that the main character is a part of, a community of trans teens who hide away in their bedrooms online, where they feel like they can be themselves under digital personas. The song goes in depth in different ways, such as her relationship with her father, who is both unsupportive and extremely religious, going as far as believing that “Satan waits upstairs, watching over his daughter”. The daughter is going through a whole emo phase, struggling to express her femininity and writing sad songs as the only way she knows how to express her feelings.

This song also seems to connect to other songs by Glass Beach, specifically “yoshi’s island” and “glass beach and blood rivers”. The repeated verse in yoshi’s island, “run yourself out of words to say you’re hopelessly lonely”, could be a reference to the songs written by the main character of this song. bedroom community includes the verses, “melancholia can spread like a virus, I know you got it from that stupid girl”, which is a line spoken by the father to his daughter. This part of the song seems out of place, as there’s no specific “girl” referenced anywhere else in the song, but it starts to make sense if you consider it in the context of “glass beach and blood rivers”, which centers around two genderqueer characters and their storied relationship. These three songs tell the story of one trans girl’s life and her relationships with her parents and lifelong best friend.

Song links:

Bandcamp, Spotify, Apple Music, Soundcloud, YouTube Music

Full song lyrics:

Here it is again, a heart of excitement
in the form of a girl who hates her life
as she sits alone on the floor of her bedroom
waiting for answers, wasting time

Here it is again, the son of a soldier
Remington shotgun, rolled up sleeves
to keep Satan out of the walls of the suburbs
His last bastion of modernity

But Satan waits upstairs, watching over his daughter
She writes emo songs, she’s so depressed
Her lyrics are naive but she still sings her heart out
The only way she knows how to confess

And as she gets up to shut the bedroom door behind her,
he stands right beside her, she’s trying to get her head on straight
With box dye hair to match her black thigh highs
and scratched nail polish, she performs femininity
She laughs so hard, I watch her lose her balance
fall over backwards to the arms of Mephistopheles
but she’ll never leave her bedroom in this bedroom community

He said you’ll never be okay, ‘kay, if you don’t come to your senses
With you everything’s the end of the world
Melancholia can spread like a virus
I’m sure you got it from that stupid girl

You’ll never be okay, if you don’t come to your senses
but I feel so defenseless, so alone
I thought he was right when he said that he loved me
He’s still thinking of me from up there

And as they stop to look at her they won’t look further
Like it’s not a murder, it’s an inevitable tragedy
The bloody hands of all the heartless fuckers
who emotionally fucked her to monetize her suffering
Flipping through a spiral notebook for some
sad, hopeless words to turn into a liturgy
So she’ll never leave her bedroom in this bedroom community

Da-na-na-na-na, na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na, na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na, na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na, na-na-na

No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no
No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no, no, no
No, no, no, no, no, no, no
No, no, no, no
No, no, no, no-no, no, no, no
No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, no
No, no, no, no-no, no, no, no
No, we’ll never leave our bedrooms
We’re a bedroom community!

Ba-da-da-da, da-da-da
Here it is again, a heart of excitement
in the form of a girl who hates her life
as she sits alone on the floor of her bedroom
waiting for answers, wasting time

Member Notes:

I love this song so much!! I think it’s tied with Yoshi’s Island as my favorite song, it represents the trans experience in ways and words that, like Yoshi’s Island, WILL legit just make me cry a bit if I’m in a vulnerable mood. Like the lyric “but I feel so defenseless, so alone”, OH boy yeah that one hurts sometimes, I love this song

-Sylvie <3

Sorry to anyone who uses Amazon Music and wanted a link. I gave up on finding it because not only am I not familiar with the site, but for some reason the pages are only coming up in Spanish. I’ll add the link when I can ><

-Win!