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Sky: Children of the Light

A Sky kid leads a spirit to relive their memories.
A Sky kid leads a spirit to relive their memories.

Sky: Children of the Light developers (thatgamecompany) have stated that none of the Sky kids (players) or spirits have specified genders. They also have a Pride event every June and donate to The Trevor Project.

Sky: Children of the Light is a social game in which players relive spirits’ memories across 7 different realms. Each spirit has a friendship tree that allows the player to unlock new cosmetics, spells, and more. Sky has events year-round of varying lengths. “Season” events are about the length of a real life season, and “Days” events last a few weeks at most.

thatgamecompany has stated this on a support site: “The characters and spirits in Sky are deliberately designed to let players express their chosen gender in whatever manner they choose. We believe in the power of player choice and self-expression, and encourage you to discover what that means for your in-game character.” When they introduce new spirits on social media, they also avoid using pronouns with the spirits. Whenever pronouns are used, it’s always they/them, similarly to how we use they/them for people when we don’t know their gender.

Every year, Sky hosts Days of Color, an event that acts as an in-game Pride. Pride cosmetics are available during this event. 2023 introduced 2 dark rainbow items (mostly black items with some rainbows). Other items, all rainbow of course, include a cape, trousers, and headphones. An area of Daylight Prairie was also extended for this event. Players could be seen bringing color to the already existing area, and flying up to the extension in a rainbow beam. The extended area featured a few small sky islands with rainbow waterfalls and bridges. Players faded into each color of the rainbow while in this area, and could float upon a giant rainbow ring that encircled the sky islands.

Days of Color 2023 also introduced event currencies. Days of Color currency could buy only the dark rainbow cape. All other items used other in-game currencies, or real ones. Either way, a donation finds its way to The Trevor Project every June.

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Lights Up by QI.X

Description:

Lights Up is a song by QI.X about finding community and living authentically, written and performed by a group of genderqueers. The lyrics are about showing one’s true colors, refusing to hide, and persisting through difficult times.

Song links:

SpotifyApple Music, YouTube MusicAmazon

Full song lyrics:

Korean:

혼자였던, 어두웠던
구름 속을 달려갔던 어제
지쳐있던, 울고 있던
나를 알아봤던 건 lights in you

칙칙했던 표정 속에
숨겨왔던 colors in you
I see all the colors in you, you
내 속에 불을 당겨 뜨거운 순간을 뱉어
나 그리고 널 초대할게

 

Lights up, 머리 위로
더는 숨지 않을게
Lights up, lights up
나를 알아본 순간
We got the power to make it make it
Lights up, 머리 위로
더는 숨지 않을게
Light it up, up, up
Light it up, up, up

복잡했던 길 (how to escape)
지도도 없이 (running forward)
언젠가 닿을 거란 걸 알고 있어
I don’t do it for the cash right
I keep on going and pushing me keep on the road
That’s all I need
Lights in you

칙칙했던 표정 속에
숨겨왔던 colors in you
I see all the colors in you, you
내 속에 불을 당겨 뜨거운 순간을 뱉어
나 그리고 널 초대할게

Lights up, 머리 위로
더는 숨지 않을게
Lights up, lights up
나를 알아본 순간
We got the power to make it, make it
Lights up, 머리 위로
더는 숨지 않을게

All I’ve been wishing for
아주 오랜 시간
All I’ve wanted for
꺼지지 않을 불빛을 따라가면
우린 서로 만날 수 있어

 

Lights up, 머리 위로
더는 숨지 않을게 (yeah all I want it for my baby)
Lights up, lights up
나를 알아본 순간 (light it up in my heart)

We got the power to make it make it (oh yeah oh yeah)
Lights up, 머리 위로
더는 숨지 않을게 (we got the power to make it)
Light it up, up, up
Light it up, up, up

Romanized:

Honjayeotdeon, eoduweotdeon
Gureum sogeul dallyeogatdeon eoje
Jichyeoitdeon, ulgo itdeon
Nareul arabwadeon geon lights in you

Chikchikhaetdeon pyojeong soge
Sumgyeowatdeon colors in you
I see all the colors in you, you
Nae soge bureul danggyeo ddeugeoun sunganeul baeteo
Na geurigo neol chodaehalge

Lights up, meori wiro
Deoneun sumji anheulge
Lights up, lights up
Nareul arabon sungan
We got the power to make it, make it
Lights up, meori wiro
Deoneun sumji anheulge
Light it up, up, up
Light it up, up, up

Bogjabhaetdeon gil (how to escape)
Jidodo eobsi (running forward)
Eonjaenga daheul georan geol algo isseo
I don’t do it for the cash right
I keep on going and pushing me keep on the road
That’s all I need
Lights in you

Chikchikhaetdeon pyojeong soge 
Sumgyeowatdeon colors in you
I see all the colors in you, you
Ne soge bureul dangyeo ddeugeoun sunganeul baeteo
Na geurigo neol chodaehalge

Lights up, meori wiro
Deoneun sumji anheulge
Lights up, lights up
Nareul arabon sungan
We got the power to make it, make it
Lights up, meori wiro
Deoneun sumji anheulge

All I’ve been wishing for
Aju oraen sigan
All I’ve wanted for
Ggeojiji anheul bulbicheul ddaragamyeon
Urin seoro mannal su isseo

Lights up, meori wiro
Deoneun sumji anheulge (yeah all I want it for my baby)
Lights up, lights up
Nareul arabon sungan (light it up in my heart)
We got the power to make it, make it (oh yeah oh yeah)
Lights up, meori wiro
Deoneun sumji anheul ge (we got the power to make it)
Light it up, up, up
Light it up, up, up

English:

Yesterday, when I was alone
I ran through the dark clouds
I was exhausted and crying
But what found me were the lights in you

The colors in you that were hidden behind
your dull expression
I see all the colors in you, you
Pull a fire inside of me and throw a hot moment into it
I will invite you and me

Lights up, above my head
I won’t hide anymore
Lights up, lights up
The moment you recognized me
We got the power to make it, make it
Lights up, above my head
I won’t hide anymore
Light it up, up, up
Light it up, up, up

A complicated path (how to escape)
With no guidance (running forward)
I know I will reach it someday
I don’t do it for the cash right
I keep on going and pushing me keep on the road
That’s all I need
Lights in you

The colors in you that were hidden behind
your dull expression
I see all the colors in you, you
Pull a fire inside of me and throw a hot moment into it
I will invite you and me

Lights up, above my head
I won’t hide anymore
Lights up, lights up
The moment you recognized me
We got the power to make it, make it
Lights up, above my head
I won’t hide anymore

All I’ve been wishing for
A long awaited time
All I’ve wanted for
If you follow the light which won’t go out
We can meet each other

Lights up, above my head
I won’t hide anymore (yeah all I want it for my baby)
Lights up, lights up
The moment you recognized me (light up in my heart)
We got the power to make it, make it (oh yeah oh yeah)
Lights up, above my head
I won’t hide anymore (we got the power to make it)
Light it up, up, up
Light it up, up, up

(Translation sources: Δήμητρα Κου. on lyricstranslate.com, irem sönmez on YouTube)


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Madeline

Madeline is a trans girl with anxiety, who the game centers around as she attempts to climb Celeste Mountain. Her journey has story beats that can be very relatable to trans players, such as the main villain being an evil version of Madeline, who literally comes out of a mirror for the sole purpose of ruining Madeline’s life. Her journey up the mountain represents her struggle with mental health, and her reflection literally throwing her back to the bottom at one point in the story very bluntly represents her dysphoria damaging her mental health. Madeline was confirmed to be trans by the games creator, an enbie named Maddy Thorson, after the release of the games “Farewell” expansion pack, which showed Madeline in her room with a little trans flag a rainbow flag on her wall, right behind her computer. Maddy also stated that some of her experiences with her identity and mental health are reflected in the game and it’s central character.

More Info:

  • Pronouns/Gender: she/her, transfem
  • Media Appearances: Main/Playable Character in videogame “Celeste”, playable character in the Nintendo Switch version of “TowerFall”

Story (SPOILERS!!)

We meet our hero at the base of Celeste Mountain, where her journey begins. Madeline, plagued with self-doubt, has spontaneously decided to make the difficult climb up the mountain in an attempt to recover her self-esteem. At the base of the mountain, she meets an old lady named Granny, who mockingly discourages Madeline and warns her of the supernatural nature of the mountain. Madeline ignores her taunting, and immediately has to cross a bridge that collapses as she dashes across, eliminating her way back. Madeline is now set on her journey up Celeste Mountain.

In the ruins of an abandoned city, Madeline meets a social media guru named Theo, who is mostly just trekking up the mountain for online fame. Shortly after meeting Theo, Madeline meets the antagonist of Celeste in a nightmare, who she names “Badeline”. A personification of Madeline’s darkest thoughts, Badeline tells her that she’s simply too weak to climb the mountain, describing herself as Madeline’s more “pragmatic” half.

Madeline next reaches the Celestial Resort, a rundown resort run by the ghost of a man named Oshiro, who is in a state of denial about the state of his resort. After Madeline ignores his offers to let her stay and instead just helps him clean the place up, Badeline persuades Oshiro that she only did it to fuel her own ego, and he chases her out of the resort in a fit of rage.

After pushing through a windy area, Madeline meets Theo at a gondola lift. Despite the anxiety of being so high up, Madeline enjoys the calm ride, until Badeline comes and stops the lift mid-ride. Madeline begins to have an extreme panic attack that leaves her gasping for air on the floor of the lift. While she breaks down, Theo teaches her a grounding technique that his grandmother taught him. Breathing in and out, visualizing that her breath is keeping a feather floating in the air, Madeline gets back on her feet.

Once the gondola continues moving, it takes the two to an ancient temple, where Theo gets sealed in a magic crystal. After carrying her crystal-encrusted friend through the temple, Madeline was once again runs into Badeline. Now with the confidence to confront her, Madeline lashes out and tells her that she wishes Badeline would just leave her alone, permanently. Hurt, Badeline throws her all the way back down the mountain.

Once again, Madeline finds herself at Granny’s hut. After talking to Granny, Madeline realizes that she should seek resolution with Badeline rather than abandoning her entirely, and sets off to find her counterpart. With Madeline finally understanding Badeline, the two share a hug and fuse together, using their combined power to reach the peak of Mount Celeste.

As the sun sets, Madeline and Badeline watch the sun set from the stunning view at the peak of the mountain. Though Badeline won’t have a physical form when they leave the magical mountain, Badeline will still be a part of her, and now they’ll live life working together, as one.

About a year later, Madeline returns to Celeste Mountain to explore the core of the mountain with Granny. Over time, the two grow close.

When Granny died shortly after, Madeline refused to go to her funeral. She shut down, and stopped communicating with her friends, including Theo. Wracked with guilt, she then travels to Granny’s grave. There, she sees a bluebird, which she recognizes as the bird that watched over her during her original journey up the mountain, and gives chase, believing that it’s a Part of Granny, just like Badeline is a Part of her. When Madeline chases the bird all the way up into space, Badeline abandons her, telling her that she’s in denial.

Badeline later returns to tell Madeline that she’s actually in a dream. Faced with the chance to see Granny one last time, Madeline forges on anyways, and Badeline eventually helps her. She catches the bird, and though she at first refuses to let this little part of Granny go, she decides to set it free as a tribute to her friend. After continuing to follow the bird higher and higher up, Madeline reaches a vast, cloudy expanse, where she finally meets with Granny once again. After getting some closure and a last goodbye with Granny, Madeline wakes up in her bedroom. Upon waking up, Madeline decides to finally let Theo back into her life, by starting a video call with him on her computer. They catch up, and Madeline finally talks about her grief over Granny’s death. Theo also tells Madeline that, as he learned from a picture he found laying around, his grandfather and Granny were actually friends who climbed Celeste Mountain together way back in the day.

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Maddy Thorson

Madeline Stephanie Thorson is the lead developer of the award winning indie game, Celeste!! She’s also worked on a few other games, such as TowerFall, and is currently the director of Extremely OK Games’s R&D department. Maddy is transfem, just like Celeste’s main character, Madeline, who’s name she adopted when she came out in 2020.

More Info:

  • Pronouns/gender: she/they, transfem
  • Notable Accomplishments: Lead developer of Celeste and TowerFall, current head of R&D for Extremely Okay Games, named one of the top “30 Under 30” game creators by Forbes in 2014.

Life Story:

Maddy was born on March 18, 1988. Her passion for game making began when she was fourteen, when her mom got her Game Maker, a simple game creation software, with which she created a few simple games while she was still in high school and college. These games were often very difficult, as she wanted to create an experience that forced the player to sharpen their skills to get through. Around this time, she started publishing her games under the name “Matt Makes Games”, an update from her previous alias, “Helix Games”.

Maddy studied computer science at Alberta, Canada’s Grande Prairie Regional College, hoping to join a big game studio, but soon shifted her goals when she realized she could make games without the help of a large studio. After graduating, she moved into a Vancouver apartment with a friend of hers, Chevy Ray Johnston, and started making games with him. They actually got a few of these published by Adult Swim Games as browser games on the company’s website.

While participating in a local game jam with her friend Alec Holowka, the two thought up a game where an out-of-shape archer tries to climb a tower, collecting treasure along the way. Rather than take this game to Adult Swim Games, they decided to continue working on with help from Johnston, evolving it into a multiplayer game where players, equipped with a bow, try to shoot eachother off a tower. This game would eventually become TowerFall, Maddy’s first game to be released on mainstream gaming platforms.

Upon realizing TowerFall’s potential, Johnston and Maddy moved into a nearby house and brought in other aspiring game developers to help them with future games. They did this in October of 2012 and called their new makeshift studio the “Indie House”. Maddy soon rebranded Matt Makes Games into “Matt Makes Games Inc”. Their friend Alex Holowka soon stepped down as co-creator of TowerFall to give Maddy the spotlight as it’s main creator, but still composed the game’s soundtrack. Eventually, TowerFall was released for an obscure console called the “Ouya” in 2013. A year later, the game was rereleased as TowerFall: Ascension for the mainstream gaming consoles. TowerFall was extremely successful, grossing over $500,000 USD in it’s first month alone.

In August of 2020, Maddy joined her fellow Matt Makes Games teammate Noel Berry in a four-day game jam, where they made a short game where the player embarks on a difficult climb up a mountain. After the game jam, having now seen the game’s potential, the Matt Makes Games team decided to build it into a fully realized game. Work began on the game in January 2016 and was released in January of 2018, becoming the award-winning indie hit “Celeste”. By the end of 2018, over 500,000 copies of the game had been sold.

In 2019, Maddy once again rebranded her company into Extremely Ok Games, or EXOK games, a name that recognizes that Maddy is not the only creative force in her company. Along with this name change came a change in location, where EXOK moved to a new set of offices in Vancouver, and brought some of their international teammates to Vancouver with them.

Maddy mentioned soon after that her first two games, Celeste and TowerFall would remain under the name Matt Makes Games, but the newly renamed team EXOK was already in the early stages of developing a new title. Within the next six months, the team had already worked through three prototypes of this new game, codenamed EXOK-1, EXOK-2, and EXOK-3. These prototypes, however, were, as Thorson stated, “too far from our (EXOK’s) comfort zone for them to realistically ever get finished”. Their fourth prototype, however, morphed into their first official product as team EXOK, announced in 2021 as Earthblade. This game is planned to be a Metroidvania* style game in a “seamless pixel art world”, and is set to release in 2024.

Around 2020, Maddy had realized her identity as a trans woman, in a journey that she said in a way mirrored Madeline’s journey of self-exploration in Celeste. Poetically, she gave herself the same first name as her also transfem character, Madeline. Maddy confirmed that Madeline’s identity is parallel to here’s in a blog post, shortly after the release of Celeste’s “Farewell” update, where Madeline is seen with a trans pride flag in her bedroom.

Notes:

*a Metroidvania-style game is a game with a heavy focus on exploration, where the player must find upgrades and new items to allow them to access new areas. These games are usually, but not always, side scrolling, and very commonly have difficult combat. The genre gets it’s name from a combination of the names of two games that essentially created the genre, Super Metroid, and Castlevania: Symphony of the Night. A few other notable games of the genre include Hollow Knight, Blasphemous, and Cave Story.

 

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Samus Aran

In earlier depictions, Samus Aran from “Metroid” was represented as a trans woman! She was described as a “newhalf”, an old Japanese slang term for trans women, by her designer, Hirofumi Matsuoka in 1994. She was also said around that time to be 6’3 and 198 pounds, more typical AMAB dimensions. Though she’s since been made smaller and more conventionally feminine in more recent games, there’s been nothing to suggest that she’s strictly cisgender, and the creator’s intent still stands!

Samus is the Nintendo universe’s most powerful bounty hunter! Using her high-tech Power Suit, which is integrated into her DNA, given to her by an alien race called the Chozo, she fights Space Pirates, robots, and monsters alike in pursuit of galactic peace. She finds upgrades to her armor like missiles, stronger laser beams, and a grappling hook to help her fight those who get in her way and navigate the vast and beautiful environments she explores throughout the Metroid franchise. In almost every grand story she stars in, she comes face-to-face with Ridley, a giant space dragon that, according to a manga that’s only available on a few scattered websites now, actually killed her parents. Samus is quiet and introverted, as suits the isolating environments she’s usually sent to, with a composure and level of combat prowess that makes her perfect at her job.  Despite her lonely nature, Samus will defend those few close to her with everything she has.

More Info:

  • Pronouns & Gender: She/Her, transfem
  • Media Appearances: Main Character/Player Character in Nintendo’s “Metroid” videogame franchise (“Metroid”, “Metroid II: Return of Samus”, “Super Metroid”, “Metroid Fusion”, “Metroid Prime”, “Metroid: Zero Mission”, “Metroid Prime 2: Echoes”, “Metroid Prime Hunters”, “Metroid Prime 3: Corruption”, “Metroid: Other M”, “Metroid: Samus Returns”, and “Metroid Dread”), Minor Character in multiple Nintendo titles (“Metroid Prime: Federation Force”, multiple “Kirby” games, multiple “Super Smash Brothers” games, others).

  • Fun Facts
    • The Metroid series was actually heavily inspired by the “Alien” movies! Both series have a badass female protagonist, and both center around a deadly alien race. The idea of the Queen Metroid was inspired by the Queen Xenomorph from “Aliens”, and both Samus and Ripley have their DNA modified with that of an alien species in “Metroid: Fusion” and “Alien: Resurrection”. 

Story (SPOILERS!!):

(This section is based on only the canon Metroid games, in their official chronological order, using any remakes as the canonical story)

Samus’s story begins with her first mission, in Metroid: Zero Mission. In the year 20X5, the Galactic Federation hires Samus to hunt down Mother Brain and her Space Pirates on Planet Zebes, who have stolen Metroids, immensely dangerous slimey organisms with the power to drain the life force of their prey. After defeating Mother Brain’s two generals, Ridley and Kraid, Samus destroys their leader and attempts flees the planet. However, Samus is shot down, forcing her to infiltrate and destroy the Space Pirate research vessel, leaving the ship just before it self-destructs.

From there, the timeline goes on with the Metroid Prime trilogy and it’s spinoffs. After another battle with Ridley, this time called Meta Ridley, Samus crash lands on Tallon IV. There she find more Chozo ruins, and another Space Pirate research center, this time studying a radioactive compoud called “Phazon”. After finding a suit that makes her immune to Phazon, Samus eventually finds the origin of Tallon IV’s Phazon problem, a heavily Phazon-mutated Metroid, which the game itself is named after: the Metroid Prime. Samus destroys it and escapes the planet. After this comes Metroid Prime Hunters, which is mostly unrelated to the rest of the Metroid Prime series. Samus fights some other bounty hunters, beat a big spooky ancient evil, and goes on her way. In Metroid Prime II: Echoes, she lands on the planet Aether, a planet who’s Phazon corruption has split the planet into two separate “light” and “dark” dimensions, which war against eachother. On Aether, Samus fights against an evil version of herself, Dark Samus, who formed from the remains of the Phazon Suit and the Metroid Prime. She mends the planet’s two halves back together, and then leaves for her next adventure. At the start of Metroid Prime 3: Corruption, Samus is infected with Phazon by Dark Samus while defending a Galactic Federation outpost. To save her life, her suit is outfitted with new ear that gives her rad new Phazon powers. Samus goes from planet to planet, eventually reaching and destroying Phaaze, the source of all Phazon, which causes the destruction of all Phazon in the galaxy as a result. Phazon has been destroyed, the galaxy is at peace.

After all this, the Galactic Federation decides to make their own knockoff Power Suits. A squad of Galactic Marines goes on missions in these new suits, with Samus appearing occassionally to help. Samus is later captured and mind controlled by the Space Pirates, but is freed by the Marines. In a post-credit scene, one of the bounty hunters from Hunters is shown stealing a Metroid, for unspecified reasons (this character seems to be being set up to be the villain of the upcoming Metroid Prime 4, as his ship is seen chasing after Samus’s in the post-credit scene of Metroid Prime 3).

By now, the Galactic Federation has decided that Metroids are too dangerous to exist. In Metroid: Samus Returns, Samus is sent to SR-388, the homeplanet of the Metroids, to exterminate every last on of them. After eliminating all 40 on the planet, including the Queen Metroid, Samus goes to leave the planet. On her way out, a Metroid egg hatches right in front of her. While she almost kills it on sight, she instead decides to have mercy on the little baby Metroid, and takes it with her. She runs into Ridley for like the 10th time, who she defeats with the baby Metroid’s help, and leaves the planet. 

The last Metroid is in captivity. The galaxy is at peace. In the classic banger, Super Metroid, Samus has put the baby Metroid into the care of Federation scientists. The baby is immediately stolen by Ridley, who flies off back to Planet Zebes, where it all began. After once again defeating Kraid and Ridley, along with some new foes, Samus is almost killed by a rebuilt, stronger Mother Brain. Just in time, the baby, now fully grown, swoops in and latches onto Mother Brain, draining her life force. As the baby heals Samus with the energy stolen from Mother Brain, the Brain gravely injures it. The baby dies saving Samus. Samus once again destroys Mother Brain, and escapes Planet Zebes. 

Metroid: Other M, the most controversial game in the franchise, gives Samus the most in-depth personality of any installment. The story of this one is complicated and actually sort of convoluted, so I won’t go into it too deeply. Essentially, Samus is scarred and heartbroken by the fate of the baby Metroid in Super Metroid. For her first mission after months of recovery, she goes to yet another research station that’s been abandoned for mysterious reasons. Here, she reunites with her old commanding officer and father figure, Adam Malkovich. When Samus meets Ridley again later on, she’s shown having a post-traumatic episode, a result of the events of Super Metroid. When they find out that this research station had been a cloning station for Metroids, using residue from the baby scraped off of Samus’s suit after her last mission. Adam sacrifices himself to destroy the station. Samus later returns to the remains of the station in a post-credit section to retrieve Adam’s helmet, a lone keepsake from her former commander. 

At the beginning of Metroid: Fusion, a deadly accident befalls Samus. While investigating the disappearance of multiple Federation soldiers on SR-388, she stumbles across a strange parasite, that absorbs itself into her body. Later, while piloting her ship, she blacks out nd crashes into an asteroid. When she is taken to a medical center, the strange parasite, which they named the X Parasite, had made it’s way into her nervous system, and fused her Power Suit to her body. She was only saved when a vaccine was made using more Metroid DNA (which they seem to just never run out of), which is now realized to have been the natural predator of the X Parasite. Samus is now a hybrid of human, Chozo, and Metroid DNA. Samus is given a sleek new purple ship, and is sent to ANOTHER compromised research station, this time one where the X Parasite was being held. With Samus is an AI assistant, which she named after her former commander, Adam. After going through the now X-infested station, Samus is shocked to discover that the Federation hasn’t given up on cloning Metroids, and that this is the true nature of the station. At the last second before the station self destructs, she accidentally calls the AI “Adam” out loud. After searching the Federation database for that name, the AI assimilates Adam’s personality, under the explanation that the Federation uploads it’s greatest military minds to the database. Samus escapes just as the station is eviscerated, destroying the X-Parasite for good.

……….except not really. At the start of the most recent game, Metroid Dread, Samus receives a message that X has been spotted on Planet ZDR. After defeating several X-corrupted robots sent there by the Federation, Samus, unlocking the full power of her Metroid DNA, destroys the planet, once again escaping just in time.

 

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Beauty Nova

Beauty Nova is a minor Pokémon character that can be battled in Pokémon X & Y. Nova says that, just a half year ago, she was a Black Belt (or a Karate King in the Japanese version), a trainer type that’s exclusively male, in contrast to her “Beauty” trainer type, which is exclusively female. While her dialogue in the English version is somewhat censored, she says in the Japanese version “the power of medical science is amazing, wouldn’t you say?!”, alluding to her medical transition!! : D

More Info: 

  • Pronouns & Gender: she/her, transfem
  • Media Appearance: Fightable trainer (Pokemon X & Y) at the Kalos region’s Battle Maison in Kiloude City
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yoshi’s island by glass beach

The First Glass Beach Album: Amazon.de: CDs & Vinyl

yoshi’s island represents the transfem community by detailing a trans girl’s relationship with her parent, society, and a third party who is also transgender. This is a transfem anthem with lyrics that can hit extremely hard for any trans person, like “I won’t say she even though I know you want me to, I know that it’s hard but I swear I still love you”. It encapsulates how it feels to be trans in such an amazing and accurate way, with a bouncy, energetic vibe that sounds and feels like the joy that comes with learning who you are.

Youtube link: 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ElkuSVwNx_o

 

Full song lyrics:

One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four

One, two, three, four
Five, six, seven, eight

I can’t take the pressure
Yeah, everybody thinks that you just need to grow up
I know it’s hard, it’s fucking impossible
tryna make sense of the things that you feel now

With spiro and estro from Vanuatu
What the hell do you think that’ll do to you?
I won’t say “she” even though I know you want me to
I know that it’s hard but I swear I still love you

I can’t take the pressure
Cry on the bathroom floor when you look in the mirror
Cover your neck or they’ll cut your head off
J, you’re only cute with your heart eyes and legs crossed

Write the things you think when you’re out of your body
Run yourself out of words to say you’re hopelessly lonely
And don’t leave the city and don’t leave the covers too
I know it’s hard but I swear I still love you

I am never gonna understand
I am never gonna understand
I am everything you think about her
Behind her back, the whole truth
Does it hurt to say you love her like a son?
The world could kill her just cause she can’t fit in right

Yeah, they’ll make it so dangerous
When they leave no room to breathe in the space they carved out for us
When the get inside your head, give you white lies and black eyes
When they try to change your shape until your sense of self dies

But you make me feel like I’m out of my body
We ran out of words to say we’re hopelessly lonely
So don’t leave the city, please don’t leave the covers too
Just stay right here babe, let’s live life like lovers do

I am never gonna understand
I am never gonna understand
I am everything you think about her
Behind her back, the whole truth
Does it hurt to say you care about your son?
The world could kill her just cause she can’t fit in right

You take spiro and estro from Vanuatu
You say you won’t think about nothing but loving you
We’re sleeping harbor seals on the seaside of Malibu
Okay, I won’t think about nothing but loving you

Spiro and estro from Vanuatu
You say you won’t think about nothing but loving you
We’re sleeping harbor seals on the seaside of Malibu
Okay, I won’t think about nothing but loving you

Analysis*

This song seems to have a perspective shift halfway through, shifting from the perspective of J’s mother/father/relative, who doesn’t support their identity, and their lover, who is likely also genderqueer. 

The first part of the song reads exactly like something an unsupportive parent of a trans person might say. “I can’t take the pressure, yeah, everybody thinks that you just need to grow up” (making it about themself, saying that it’s stressful for them, the parent), “I know it’s hard, it’s fucking impossible, tryna make sense of the things that you feel now” (as if they’re saying ‘you don’t know what you’re talking about, you’re not trans you’re just confused’), “Write the things you think when you’re out of your body, run yourself out of words to say you’re hopelessly lonely” (don’t talk about it, just write about it in a journal), “I won’t say she, even though I know you want me to, I know that it’s hard, but I swear I still love you” (I don’t support your identity, but I still love you, I swear), the lyrics all paint a clear picture of J and the singer’s relationship. The lyrics of the second half of the song, however, have an entirely different tone, being more supportive, and using “us” at times when singing about trans issues. With lyrics like “Just stay right here, babe, let’s live life like lovers do”, it’s pretty clear that this half of the song  is from the perspective of J’s lover and their relationship with J. The song ends with “Okay, I won’t think about nothing but loving you”, to represent J accepting that, okay, we may both be in constant danger from society, but at least we have eachother.

*This is just how I’m interpreting the song, to the best of my ability and in the way that I think makes the most sense, alot of it’s pretty straightforward and I’m very confident my analysis is correct.


Sidenotes:

  • A demo version of this song exists, titled “yoshi’s island things”. This version is very different, with some chunks of the song not even making it into it’s later version, but is just as amazing as it’s counterpart, with some lyrics that hit hard in ways the other doesn’t.
  • This song has connections to “bedroom community”, “glass beach and blood rivers,” “cold weather”, “classic j dies and goes to hell”, “dallas”, “(rat castle)” and “soft!!!!!!”, some of glass beach’s other songs, which, together, tell a beautiful story with complex character relationships and themes. bedroom community details the relationship between a trans girl’s relationship with her father, and has similar themes to “yoshi’s island”.
    • For example, bedroom community’s lyrics “she writes emo songs, she so depressed, her lyrics are naive, but she still sings here heart out, the only way she knows how to confess” could connect to yoshi’s island’s “write the things you think when you’re out of your body, run yourself out of words to say you’re hopelessly lonely”. Because of the lyrics about the father’s attitude towards his daughter’s identity, it seems that the first half of yoshi’s island is not sung by him, as the tone and attitude is somewhat different, with more religious themes and a harsher attitude. yoshi’s island can connect to glass beach and blood rivers as the relationship between the two transgender characters in the two songs seems to be similar, and it seems that the narrator of the second half of yoshi’s island may be the same as the narrator from glass beach and blood rivers, as the words they say and the sort of vibe to what they’re saying feels similar.
    • The lyrics in bedroom community “Melancholia can spread like a virus, I know you got it from that stupid girl” may reference J’s friend/lover, as there’s no other specific girl mentioned in the song. This verse sticks out like a sore thumb, as the mention of some girl doesn’t mesh with any of the themes or lyrics in the rest of the song, but through a later connection to this song in cold weather, this being a reference to J’s friend can only make sense. bedroom community is a song where we learn that J spends alot of time in an online group, the “bedroom community” where they feel like they can truly be themself, and in “cold weather”, we get the lyrics “I love the way you make me feel when I’m staring at my screen, at four A.M., trying not to fall asleep”, which is reminiscent of this bedroom community. Also in cold weather, we learn that J developed feelings for their friend, during this period where they were communicating online, with the verse “I wanna say I think it’s OK if we just don’t both feel the same way, but I feel like we’re more than just friends”, and this leads to the relationship we see between the two in yoshi’s island.
    • However, from the lyrics and themes in soft!!!!!!, we find that J’s mental health was spiraling, with their gender dysphoria becoming cripplingly intense, and, as J sings, “I know, know what you’re thinking, it seems like I just can’t stop making everything about myself”, implying that J’s spiral was bringing their friend down as well, leading to strain on their relationship. (rat castle), which seems to be part of the story as the term “rate castle” referenced in “dallas”, consists of only the verses “These days I don’t know what to do” and then “these days I don’t know what to do with you”, repeated twice, which I believe to be the internal thought of J’s friend, not sure what to do about J’s rapidly spiraling mental health. dallas shows us what J’s friend decided to do, driving out of town, to start a new life anywhere else, driven away by J’s issues and the lack of support from their own parents. As they drive away, the friend reminisces about the way that their circumstances made them feel small, and how J pushed them away.
    • We see that these two had lost touch for quite some time in glass beach and blood rivers, which I believe to be J’s bestie telling J what happened after a long time of disconnection between them. cold weather tells us explicitly that there was at least a six month period of time where they were out of touch, and tells us that it took this entire six months for J’s friend to realize “I didn’t miss the cold weather, I just missed you”. classic j dies and goes to hell, with the same idea conceptually as cold weather but from the perspective of J rather than their friend, centers around J attempting to make a life for themself without their friend, finding a decent job, moving into an apartment they know they’ll never own, and having trouble sleeping, filled with guilt over how things turned out. The title of this song is also how we know that J is the one left behind, and their friend was the one that ran away, as it includes J’s name.
    • glass beach and blood rivers seems to be the last song chronologically, and is from the perspective of J’s friend, explaining what happened when they left, and promising J that they’ll never leave again, while finding J at the bottom of a downward spiral and sitting with them through a panic attack. J’s friend is back for good, admitting their feelings, in lyrics “so please listen clearly, I love you dearly” and “I love you, okay?”, and promising that they will always be here for J. They propose that they should “forget about the places that we should be”, and run away together. This is where the story ends, and I can only hope that they did, and lived happily ever after, together. 🙂

Personal sidenote: This is my favorite song of all time!!!!!! It hits really hard for me and it’s relatable to me because of my relationships with my mom and grandparents, and WOAH yeah some of these lyrics rock me to my core, like “I won’t say she even though I know you want me to, I know that it’s hard but I swear I still love you”, WOAHHHHHHHH THATS ROUGH –Sylvie <3

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BIPOC Character Novel Transfem

Sister

Image used with permission from original artist, Uzuri Art

Sister is an openly transfem clone trooper who is accepted by her fellow clones and her Jedi generals. She was worried for her safety because of her trans-ness, unsure if she would be considered a “defective” clone, and killed because of it, a fear that many of us trans people know all too well. Due to the man she and all the other clones were cloned from being of Māori descent, Jango Fett played by Temuera Morrison, she is also Māori representation.

More Info:

  • Pronouns/Gender: she/her, transfem
  • Media Appearance: Minor character from the novel Star Wars: Queen’s Hope by author E. K. Johnson

Appearance:

As a clone trooper, Sister has a face, tan skin color, and hair color identical to that of the original DNA donor, Jango Fett, played by Māori actor Temuera Morrison. In Uzuri Art’s commissioned drawing of Sister, she is depicted with long, dark-brown braids, and armor decorated with the pink and blue of the transgender flag.

Story (SPOILERS!!!):

Sister was created on the planet Kamino as one of millions of clones of the bounty hunter Jango Fett, intended to become soldiers for the Galactic Republic. Sister later developed a sense of femininity that was unusual among her brothers. Though this was otherwise unheard of, her brothers, upon learning of her identity, showed their support by giving her her nickname, “Sister”, as a way to reenforce that she is loved and supported. Upon the beginning of the Clone Wars, a civil war between the Republic and the Confederacy of Independent Systems, the clones’ purpose was realized, and they were deployed as the Grand Army of the Republic. 

Sister was once again fearful of not being supported, this time by her Jedi generals, her leaders soon proved themselves to be just as open-minded as her brothers. Sister in a battle at some point fought as a member of the 7th Sky Corps under leadership of Clone Commander Cody and Jedi Generals Obi-Wan Kenobi and Anakin Skywalker. Following the battle, Sister made a makeshift memorial under a tree, in memory of her brothers who died during the battle. While rendezvousing with General Kenobi, Sister later had a conversation with General Skywalker about gender, where Skywalker likened Sister’s transition to the Jedi’s belief in rising above conventions. 

Soon after, Sister was deployed to the planet Langston with General Skywalker and the 302nd Battalion on an aid mission. 


 

Notes:

This is one of my favorite characters ever!!!!!! This is such a cool idea to me; one transgender sister among hundreds of thousands of genetically identical brothers, it’s so unique and creative!! Plus, I’ve loved Star Wars since forever and I think I’d go feral if Sister showed up in a show or movie.

-Sylvie <3

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Character Comic Transfem

Shela Sexton, “Escapade”

Shela is a Mutant from Marvel Comics with the power to switch physical places or situations with someone. She’s a very obscure character, only ever appearing in about seven Marvel series out of Marvel’s thousands of series, but it’s very cool to see a story focusing on a trans character in the Marvel universe! 

More Info: 

  • Other Names: Escapade (current hero name), Blaster Dame (previous hero name)
  • Pronouns/gender: she/her, transfem
  • Type of Media: Marvel comics, supporting character & main protagonist
  • Superpower/gear: Shela has the ability to trade places, possessions, or powers with anyone in a seven foot radius. This switch can last for several hours. She also has repulsors in her gloves and boots that allow her to fly, goggles equipped with a heads-up display, glitter bombs that can damage technology, and dice that can disrupt gravity. 

Story (SPOILERS!!!)

Shela’s mutant power was first manifested when she accidentally switched places with her school’s principal in the 9th grade. Though her parents supported her when she told them that she’s a mutant, they kicked her out of the house when she came out as trans. 

At age 18, Shela moved in with her transmasc friend Morgan Red, who’d been her best friend since the 5th grade, and Morgan’s genetically engineered flying turtle (advfhffhfhfdchh Marvel Comics are so fun). They joined a support group called Super Trans, a support group specifically for transgender mutants, which also included Aphelion, Good Arson, Pity Girl, and other young transgender mutants (some of which might get posts on this site someday?). 

Shela eventually began using her powers to steal from corrupt politicians, with Morgan as her man in the chair. Shela at one point ran into Emma Frost and Destiny, who showed her a vision of a future where she accidentally causes Morgan’s death. Emma offered to help train Shela, but she refused. Shela soon learned of something called an the Onyx Needle, which could possibly prevent this grim future. Shela tried to find the Needle with telling Morgan, trying to avoid telling him about the vision, but was eventually forced to when this began to damage their friendship. Soon after, Shela agreed to train with Emma Frost. 

Shela, along with Morgan and several other mutants, was later kidnapped by the U-Men, a group of humans obsessed with becoming mutants through genetic modification and surgery. Shela fell off the roof of the U-Men’s complex, but chose not to switch physical spaces with Morgan, ready to accept death if it meant her friend could go on. However, this wasn’t her time, as Leo Eng was able to use his telekinesis to stop her midair, allowing Wolfsbane to catch her. Shela and Morgan were now both safe, proving Destiny’s vision wrong. 

Notes:

I want to cosplay her, end of note -Sylvie <3

Categories
Character Game Transfem

Omori

(Concept art of Omori as a girl by OMOCAT)

 

Omori can become a girl in the Hikkikomori Route of the game. However, all it does is give his sprite pigtails and allows the player to enter the girls’ restroom at Last Resort.

Omori is one of the central characters of OMORI, a psychological horror RPG that allows the player to explore two separate worlds and ultimately pick one of the two realities.

More info:

  • Other names: Sunny
  • Pronouns/gender: he/him, cis male (transfem if you go through with certain actions. It doesn’t change the story, though.)
  • Media Appearances: Main character of one of OMORI‘s two worlds

Story (SPOILERS!!!!):

Omori is the first character the player sees, and plays as. For the majority of the game, he’s the protagonist of Headspace. Headspace is a world that exists solely inside of the mind of Sunny, the protagonist of the real world, and who the game truly centers around. Omori resembles 12-year-old Sunny, and is the only black and white character in a world of color.

To tell his whole story as a character would take an unimaginable amount of time, so instead we’ll give a summary. As stated above, this does contain major spoilers. If you haven’t experienced the game yet and are intrigued, we encourage you to stop reading and experience the game first by playing it or watching this walkthrough.

Omori lives in White Space, which is a fairly simple place. There’s a laptop, tissue box, notebook, cat, and door. Through most of the game, the laptop shows a game of Hangman. To guess letters, the player has to collect the letter keys scattered throughout Headspace. Omori and his friends go on many adventures throughout the game, mostly in an attempt to find their friend, Basil, that goes missing at the beginning of the game. During battles, Omori “does not succumb” once per battle if he’s supposed to be defeated and stays in at 1 HP. Omori alone finds Basil multiple times, but always ends up back in White Space. Once the hangman puzzle is solved, a new area of Headspace is unlocked: Black Space.

It’s even simpler at the surface, with only a picnic basket used to save the game, another tissue box, and doors scattered all over the place. Each door leads into different rooms, a few of which with Basil in them. In every room where Omori finds Basil, Basil ends up dead, sometimes cut off as he’s about to say something. In one of the rooms, Omori is given a Black Space version of Basil’s photo album, and picks up the photos from around the room. They’re out of order, but once placed in the photo album, they tell a story that Omori has been trying to repress for Sunny for four years: Sunny accidentally killed his older sister, Mari, and no one but Basil knows about it. Basil had the idea of hanging her in a tree to frame it as a suicide so that the two of them wouldn’t get in trouble.

Toward the end of the true route, Omori becomes the final boss battle. He becomes a manifestation of Sunny’s deepest, darkest thoughts. He encourages Sunny to end his life, saying that he’s less than worthless and there’s no way he’d be forgiven if he were to admit what he’s done. Instead of the familiar “Omori did not succumb” message, the player sees the message “Omori will not succumb” instead, and cannot defeat Omori. Instead, they are slowly beaten down by Omori until they’re defeated. Then, Sunny comes back and plays a duet with Headspace Mari, one that they argued about and just before Mari’s accidental death. Omori fades after the performance, and Sunny wakes up.

Completely changing the vibe of this post, Omori can become a girl in the Hikkikomori Route. The Hikkikomori Route starts when Sunny refuses to open the front door and go outside, therefore choosing Headspace as his reality. The player spends a lot more time in Headspace playing as Omori because of this, and if the player helps Medusa during their second visit to Humphrey, she gives a mystery potion that transes Omori’s gender.